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Do you ever feel STUCK? In 2000, I began looking for answers to some tough questions in my life. I'd searched high & low and finally conceded to search the promises found in the Bible. Those promises have sustained & guided me through the loss of a parent, the struggle with anxiety & depression, the loss of a valued relationship and so much more! I've found joy amid the pain. And, I want to share it with you!

12 January 2015

A Bottom-Feeder in the Ocean of Life

And, I have to remind myself to:
Fight the feeling!
Earlier as I was digging through the over-crowded & very disorganize refrigerator for left-overs, I thought to myself, "Yep, you're just a bottom-feeder in the Ocean of Life!" The search effort was twofold: get rid of anything which looked like a potential science experiment & find something suitable (more than stale Christmas cookies or left over candy) for lunch. More days than not, I'm looking through the refrigerator trying to determine what's in there that I could and should eat before it becomes a petri dish for cultivation. My mindset isn't, "What looks the yummiest?" But, my mind is focused on, "What's relatively nutritional & needs to be eaten -- that others probably won't want to eat?"

I'm a mom & a glam-mother (I can't quite bring myself to using the "grand" prefix yet). And, I was raised in a home where funds were limited and wasting food was completely unacceptable. If my mom cooked a chicken, we kept eating chicken until the only remains were bone & sinew. So, I guess I've grown into being my mother in a few ways... yikes :) At this time in life, I'm not working outside the home & have 3 other family members who leave early each week day for work & return in the evening right about time for dinner. PLEASE NOTE, if I am keeping this real... I am not a Martha Stewart or a Betty Crocker or a Rachel Ray. I'm more like a mellow, younger version of Maxine when it comes to cooking. But, I don't want to waste food. So, when it comes to lunches on the days I'm home alone, I'm a bottom-feeder :)

From time to time, in other areas of my life, I've felt like a bottom-feeder... taking only the leftover scraps of time, attention, affection, and more from those around me. In times like that, I'm reminded that it's not always about me. When I get to feeling that I'm just a bottom-feeder in life, I metaphorically...

swim to the surface...
take a fresh breath of air...
look upward to the sun...
and look around for a taste of something better. 

We can choose to be "bottom-feeders" or we can choose to be overcomers. I choose the latter!

2 comments:

  1. I love this! And I love your Maxine analogy lol.

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    1. Thanks Melissa. It's been a crazy few months & my writing has been so sparse :( But, I'll get back in the swing of things!

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