Have you ever thought about something & then thought in your head, "Shhhhh... don't tell God!"
I remember a time when I was afraid to verbalized my thoughts when I was talking to God. I tried to NEVER think or say or pray anything that I knew wasn't what a "good Christian" would think. I wanted to plan out my prayers - instead of just have a flowing conversation with God.
I was raised by parents whose faith was very real & very vocal. My father was a pastor. My mother was a missionary's kid (& a pastor's wife in her adult days). I thank God that they genuinely walked their talk. They weren't perfect but, there was never any doubt in my mind that their hearts belonged to the Lord.
Don't go down
I learned the meanings of omnipotent, omnipresent & omniscient at an early age. Kids love to know BIG words :) And, regardless of my commitment to God at any time during my life, my belief that He was all powerful, all present & knew everything never wavered. I still managed to rationalize that I could though, in a way, fool God. More than thinking I could fool Him, I think I felt that I couldn't be completely honest with God & be loved totally by Him if I were to verbalize all my feelings to him.
As I am open & honest with God, I find that I am more confident to trust Him in new situations. He's always there to help me as I choose which way to go.
Your own ears will hear him. Right behind you a voice will say, “This is the way you should go,” whether to the right or to the left. Isaiah 30:21
Linking this month with The Nesting Place
for the 31-day Challenge